Not Sure What I'm Doing

I have started reading Dean's 30 days book. I've gotten through the first 2 phases of Week 1 - 5. I'm determined to do this. I no longer have anyone to tell me that I can't do it.

I am living with my mother and I'm recently divorced, on disability, and receiving no help from my ex-husband. So I have to make this work, not just to show my x that I no longer need him or his money but to show myself that I am worth every minute, every second that I put into this program.

Right now I can't even afford $40 to put airtime on my phone. THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN!!!! I WILL NEVER HAVE TO WANT FOR ANYTHING AGAIN!!!!