I found my motivation

My motivation made me cry last night. I can usually hold things in pretty well, but this was a tough one for some reason. It was my oldest daughter's 9th birthday, and I had to work all day and night. It has always been like this, we are all used to it. I work for my parents with my brother. We're not always busy, but when we are we have to put the hours in and you can never call in sick or take a vacation. Makes sense, it's work. I'm lucky, I have a great husband who is home with the kids and he's great at it.

Well, he was with her all day, and had a friend's party he was going to. Grandma came over, and he left. My daughter called me at work. I don't know what it was, maybe the disappointment, or the loneliness in her voice, or just the thought that I am trying to bust my butt to make enough in rei to be home with my kids... I lost it. I wasn't mad at my husband for leaving, but I think I was jealous of all the time he gets with our 4 children while I am working 60 hours at one job and learning rei with the remaining hours left. That's when it hit me. I'm not doing everything I could be doing in rei. I wanted to walk out of work last night and couldn't. (Who could? ) A full time REI could! Oh yeah! Yet another reason to write down on my list of motivational factors.

I love reading everyone's posts. I didn't want to wholesale, so I didn't think I needed to find buyers. Then I realized I was just scared to get out of my comfort zone. I need more money so I can buy and hold deals, so I'm going to have to bird dog or wholesale for awhile. I'm ready now, here we go!