OfflineI have a great sense of humor. I love children, animals. My heart goes out to all the people that are in all parts of the Armed Services. Loyal, trusting, giving.
There were many things I used to love to do. But back in '07 found out I have Lupus, Arthritis & pain all the time. I used to be very active lots of friends I would socialize with.
Now I have been in bed since '08 when I lost my job.
I have a daughter who is 25 & is a loving & giving person to all she knows.
However our relationship is like a rollercoaster.
I lay in bed for days.
I been living off of my retirement. I put thousands of dollars in Dean's program.
I kept seeing him on TV & wanted to change my life. I should have waited. My doctors are trying to get me disabled. I have been denied twice. Now I am more depressed that I will not follow through with this. I already missed the 1st class. I pray to God all the time to get me out of bed & be the person I used to be. My house was always very organized. Not anymore. All my family lives in another state. I have a limited circle of people that try so hard to get me to get up and out. Now This is all I have left & it scares me to death. 3 day classes took everything out of me. So now I've said stuff that most likely is not a normal question on who I am. I just don't know anymore. I did everything on my own. Even buying a home which I never thought I could. Last month & this month are the 1st time in my life that I cannot pay my house bills. So I have to do this & hope I can understand it & have the energy. Never had a problem walking, thinking ect. So I pray to God I can do this or I will lose my home soon.